I didn’t just lose money in crypto… I lost control

I didn’t lose everything in one trade. That’s the part people don’t understand. It happened slowly. At first, I was doing okay. Small wins here and there. Nothing crazy, but enough to feel like I knew what I was doing. Then I had one really good run. A few trades went right, and suddenly my portfolio looked better than anything I had ever seen before. That’s when things changed. I stopped thinking about risk. I stopped caring about protecting what I had. All I could think was… “what if I can double this?” So I started taking bigger positions. When one trade went wrong, I didn’t stop. I tried to recover it. Then another loss came. And another. At that point, it wasn’t about making money anymore. It was about getting back to that number I once saw on my screen. I kept telling myself, “just one good trade and I’ll fix everything.” But it never came. Instead, I watched everything go down. Not overnight… but slowly enough that I kept believing I could still turn it around. Until there was almost nothing left. The worst part isn’t even the money. It’s the fact that I knew, at multiple points, I should stop. And I didn’t. Now I keep thinking about all the moments where I could have walked away… and how different things would be. I haven’t told anyone about this. Not friends, not family. From the outside, everything looks normal. But inside, I know I messed up badly. If anyone has gone through something like this… how did you deal with it mentally? Because right now, that’s the hardest part.